conserve my spoons I realize, because I do pay for it 10 fold the next day... errrrr, week, but I have to stop beating myself up when I can't do anything but lay here, like this whole week for example. hehe.
On a side note, I will no longer be sharing stories about my extended family or childhood. Though I feel that writing and reflecting on my past experiences is very therapeutic for me, and possibly uplifting to others, I did not think of the effects it could have on others who share in my past. So for that I do apologize. I do encourage everyone to write though... you never know who or what you might inspire! Just remember that you can't reeaaally take back your words once they've been "published" hehe.