Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Larry's Last Horrah!

Almost 30 years down, and I am still clinging to hope that it can't rain all the time... and it looks like this storm may be passing soon!! Friday night Nancy got the call from Janelle at USC, and she is officially liver splitting capable (hehe... oh ya, I've got more clever sayings so stay tuned) So we will be setting up the surgery. And if all goes as planned, I will be taking River to preschool myself by September. (that's even giving myself a 6 weeks recoup time...hehe) I really am trying my hardest to prepare for the worst and praying for the best. :) Which was sort of the reason I wanted to take this trip to Las Vegas in the first place. It really is uncertain how this will all turn out. I am trading one set of problems for another if I make it at all, and what if it doesn't take all of my old problems away? Even though, right now I am pretty much in constant pain and on borrowed time... it is familiar and all I have, so I will try and make the best out of it. So, I thought I should send Larry out in style... but, it kind of turned out to be a reminder of everything we can't do... (and I'm not talking boozing it up and prostitution here people) At least when I am in the hospital, I know that there is nothing going on around me that I am missing... But in Vegas... Man, that's torture!! Hehehe... No, no, it wasn't bad, I joke. I got to do just about everything I wanted to do... Saw a comedy show, window shopped, went swimming (well, floating), and reminisced with the guys. I haven't spent as much time with them as I would like, so that was a treat. It just all had to be done between naps and from a wheelchair this time... hehehe. (By the way, I did feel really bad using the wheelchair, especially when they would roll me up next to someone who actually had their own, but it really did keep Larry from hurting and me from extra naps on Sunday - I didn't love it - I was even shorter then.
But it was nice, and now it is all down to business. Pray for the best and prepare for the worst... Me and Nancy have some paperwork to fill out, directives and living wills... Like me, I am sure she is taking extra note of the smell of her childrens hair... extra glances at the sky. And though I know in my heart and soul that she will be ok, I am amazed at the fact that she is doing this by choice (Yup, no money or pressure here folks) just to give me the opportunity live!! Just hold out a few more months Larry ol' buddy of mine.... Sally is coming to take over for ya reaaaaaaaaal soon...Like, July 15th (possibly) soon!!

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I LoooooOOOOOOOVE YOU VERY MUCH...I have been smelling your hair for 29 yrs now I really need you to stay strong honey it is okay to talk about what you think about and I do understand more than you know I don't say my thoughts but I do want you to know that you and rylee are the best thing in my life that me and God created and I am very proud to have you as a daughter I would not trade you for the world and I just know you will have your good days
soon You have been a trooper and I know it's hard on you not being able to do things you want or when you are so tired you need a nap and River doesn't understand I know the hurt ofa Mother for a child I understand the pain you will be able to redeem that ticket soon and it is well deserved God Bless my children, Grandson and Family I love you xoxoxo